no money for food anymore. kinda sucks, i wanted to get healthy. i guess i will finally lose weight. can't be tempted by what's not there. and the lesbian thing is still lingering over my head. probably will until i accept it. i just don't wanna make the wrong choice like i always do. i don't wanna regret leaving a good man becasue i'm just horny. i wish i could find out if it's for real or not. i could be very happy without men in my life but i just have to know it's for the right reasons. i miss having a girlfriend... i was soo happy. even though shit was worse back then, i was happy.
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